Thoughts from a Sleepless Night

Of course my mind races on a Saturday night. A Saturday night when I have to be at church at 8 in the morning. When every minute I spend thinking is one less I spend sleeping.

Of course.

Of course I can't stop thinking about the future on a night when I can't do anything about it. A night where the future isn't until tomorrow and even then it's still somewhere off in the distance. Where every minute I spend thinking is one less I spend sleeping.

Of course.

Of course there are a million things running through one half of my head that I could be doing, while the other half is screaming "You need to sleep!" "If you don't sleep you won't be any good to anyone!" Every minute my head is at war is one less I spend doing either thing it wants to do.

Of course.

Of course my brain doesn't think about God in the moments when He's all that could soothe my racing heart. When I can hardly breathe with anxiety and so far He's been the only remedy to work. When every minute I spend thinking is one less I spend praying.

Of course.

Of course, I'm only human. What more could I expect from myself?

{Hey, guys.  I wrote this last night when I couldn't sleep. I know it isn't Christmas-y, but I wanted to jot it down none the less.  Look for some Christmas posts this week! ~ Abby}