Wednesday, May 17, 2017

The Playlist Book Tag

So there's this tag that's been going around YouTube, and when I needed an idea for a blog post, it seemed to hit like lightning.  Musical lightning. 

Basically, this is a simple tag where you put your iTunes, Spotify, Google Music, or whatever mode of music you most listen to, on shuffle, and pick a book to go with the songs that come up.  As every Youtuber I've watched has done a different number of books, I'm going to settle with a nice even ten.  Ten is a cool number.

(and yes, this would probably be a lot more fun if I had video capabilities.  Unfortunately, I do not, so you just get to read these words instead of hearing me say them.  Yay.)

I've hit that shuffle button and I have no idea what's coming so LET'S DO THIS THING!


(also, quick disclaimer - I have a ton of movie soundtracks in my iTunes, so to make it more fun, I'm skipping any instrumental pieces that come up, but obviously, if you want to use the instrumental pieces, you go ahead and live your dream.)

1:
The Song: I Want the Good Times Back {The Little Mermaid on Broadway}

The Book: Isle of the Lost {Melissa de la Cruz}

The Connection: Not going to lie, this one took me a minute.  I knew it had to be a story with a great villain, and what better villain-y book to use than one about Disney villains?  The book follows the children of Maleficent, Jafar, Cruella de Vil, and the Evil Queen... unfortunately, not Ursula... although I think that's in book 3.  Not to mention, this song basically spells out Maleficent's reason for getting the kids to find her staff. 


2:
The Song: Gaston {Beauty and the Beast}
(dunno why I've gotten two villain songs in a row??)
The Book: The Beast Within {Serena Valentino}

The Connection: This is a retelling of the story of the Beast.  In a really interesting and original twist, the author took the chance to make Gaston the Prince's best friend.  So obviously I had to pick this one.


3:
The Song: Walk on the Water (the remix) {Britt Nicole}

The Book: Beyond Tuesday Morning {Karen Kingsbury}

The Connection: This is a sequel, following the story of a woman whose life was forever altered by the events of 9/11.  This one centers on Jamie's new-found faith and her trying to begin a firmer relationship with God.  So this song really clicked with this book for me.  (I do recommend this series [though I haven't read the third one yet], but be forewarned - these are two of very few books that have made me full-on sob while reading).


4:
The Song: I'll Lead You Home {Michael W. Smith}

The Book: The Fire Chronicle {John Stephens}

The Connection: 'Nother sequel, sorry.  This trilogy is one of my all-time favorites, and this song just really fit this book.  The whole thing is about a certain character trying to get home and getting help along the way.  Perfect fit, in my opinion.


5:
The Song: Oklahoma {Oklahoma! Original Broadway Cast}

The Book: The Icecutter's Daughter {Tracie Peterson}

The Connection: Pretend they sing "Miiiiiinesooootaaaa" and it fits.  I genuinely couldn't think of any books I'd read that were set in Oklahoma.  Which is what I would have picked, could I think of one.  But the state pride in the song transfers to the book really well, as well as the happy ending that the song gives to the musical's love story.  Also, the song will be stuck in your head for days afterward, much like how I thought about this book for days afterward.
(yeah, okay, I'm reaching here but I needed to match one, okay?)


6:
The Song: Without You {For King & Country}

The Book: The Roar {Emma Clayton}

The Connection: While the song itself centers around a married couple (in which one partner has a life-threatening disease) (the story of this song is just heart-breaking if you haven't heard it), the book follows a pair of twins who have been separated, and don't want to live apart.  Plus the somewhat dystopian sound fits perfectly with the feel of the book.  Yes.  Good match.


7:
The Song: Wouldn't It Be Loverly? {My Fair Lady Original London Cast}

The Book: A Little Princess {Francis Hodgson Burnett}

The Connection: This song, obviously, gives me London vibes.  And not just any London vibes, poor London, turn-of-the-century vibes.  And what is my favorite story of poor Londoners at the turn of the century?  A Little Princess, of course.  This was a simple match, really.  (plus, Julie Andrews sings this version, which automatically makes it ten times more awesome)


8:
The Song: Wherever You Are {Pooh's Grand Adventure: The Search for Christopher Robin}

The Book: Navigating Early {Clare Vanderpool}

The Connection: If Navigating Early was a musical, can't you hear Early singing this song, and Jack watching him gently like Rabbit does in the clip?  Because I certainly can.  And it's pretty feels-inducing. 


9:
The Song: Ceasefire {For King & Country}

The Book: Into the Gauntlet {Margaret Peterson Haddix}

The Connection: This is the last book, technically, in the original 39 Clues series.  The whole idea of this book is perfectly spelled out in the song.  Not to spoil anything, but most of the kids who have been told that they hate each other for most of the series realize that they don't need to fight each other, they need to fight together. 


10:
The Song: You're Welcome {Moana Original Motion Picture Soundtrack}

The Book: The Hidden Oracle {Rick Riordan}

The Connection: This connection is hilarious to me.  Apollo and Maui are so alike at the beginning of both of their stories, it was an obvious choice.  I mean, just imagine, "Yes, it's really me, Apollo, breathe it in."


And there you have it!

That was super fun, and surprisingly challenging.  (Like honestly, what do you do with the title song from "Oklahoma!"??) 

I'M GOING TO TAG PEOPLE BECAUSE TAGS ARE FUN SO HERE WE GO

Jonathan
Faith
Abigayle
Jazzy
Andrea
Rebekah
Chloe
And, as always, YOU! If you're a blogger and you want to do this tag, consider yourself TAGGED.

Have fun with it, guys!

~ Abby

Thursday, May 4, 2017

A Time to Die {book review}

It's not rare that I enjoy books that my friends recommend.  Especially friends in the blogging/OYAN community.

What is rare is when I find the books they recommend on the clearance shelf, in pristine condition, with their sequel beside them.

It's even rarer for said book to destroy my heart and really make me think.

Such was the case with Nadine Brandes' debut.

A Time to Die

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Genre: Dystopian
Author: Nadine Brandes
Content: Some violence, loss of limbs, and death.
Main Character: Parvin Blackwater

Brief Overview: Parvin Blackwater lives in a society where Numbers are everything.  Your Clock determines whether or not you get healthcare, food, or even a job.  But Parvin has a secret.  She's been sharing a Clock with her twin brother Reid, neither of them sure who it belongs to.  When this fraud is exposed, Parvin is labelled a Radical and sentenced to go over the Wall, a death penalty.  But God has a plan for Parvin's remaining Numbers, even if she doesn't see it at first.

Placement in Series: 1 of 3 (I think)

What I Thought:
OH. MY. WORD.

I didn't know what to expect going into this.  But several friends had been raving about it, so I picked it up.  I'm so glad I did.
What I found, in the best way I can describe it, was a story of life and death, and the impact death has on life.
It was beautiful, everyone should read it.

The Characters:
Parvin - I related to Parvin so much.  I'm coming to a point in my life, as I'm sure many before me have, where I'm wondering if I've wasted my Numbers.  But I can say, this is one of those books that gives me completely unrealistic expectations of my chances at surviving in the woods.  Honestly.

Reid - Be still my beating heart.  I came out of this book with so many more fictional crushes than I had going in.  Reid is one of them.  That's all.

Willow - Oh, man, this kid is awesome.  Seriously, I will put her with the other "I aspire to be like her" characters in my life.  She rarely complains, she has skills to pay the bills (literally, in some cases), and she can be a leader when she's needed.  Also, how cute are she and Elm?  The. Cutest.  My poor shipper heart.

Jude - Yep, 'nother crush.  Honestly, Parvin's treatment of him annoyed me at times. Like, girl, he's already SAVED YOUR LIFE FIVE TIMES, CHILL. *cough* Anyway, I love this guy.  He's so complex and swoon-worthy and okay, I'll stop now. 

Favorite Quote:
How does a biographer begin a book?  God started with In the beginning.  Fairy tales being with Once upon a time.  Neither sounds right.  I'm not God, and I'll never be a fairy.

Will I Keep Reading? YES.

Overall Rating: 5 EMOTIGRAPHS OUT OF 5.  CAN I GIVE IT 10?? (wait, it's my blog, of course I can) 10 OUT OF 5


Go out right now and pick up a copy of this book.  You won't regret it.


(and in case I don't get another chance to tell you, HAPPY STAR WARS DAY)


~ Abby

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

April Wrap-up and May TBR

Well, we've reached the end of another month.  April was pretty good for me, although it marked one year without Dad.  But we spent a whole lot of time as a family, which was wonderful.  The Easter musical program went off with only a few hitches, and overall it went really well.  As of April the 30th, I have officially graduated from AWANA with my Citation Award and the possibility of college scholarships awaiting me.  (Guys, Mom counted, and apparently since age 4, I've memorized and recited over 700 scripture verses.  That is nuts.)

 But let's take a look at what I did as pertaining to this blog.



What I Read:

Ring of Fire ~ P.D. Baccalario
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Overview: Four children, after finding out that they were all born on February 29, come across a mysterious briefcase with an odd assortment of items inside.  In trying to unravel this mystery, they stumble upon an ancient prophecy that could lead them to saving the world.
Rating: 3 out of 5 (it was good, but not great)

Lost in a Book ~ Jennifer Donnelly
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(random, but, how gorgeous is this cover???)
Overview: Belle is becoming comfortable with her new life in the Beast's castle, but she still misses her home and her father.  While cleaning the library she's just been gifted, she stumbles upon a book called "Nevermore" that allows her to live out her dreams.  But she doesn't know that the sisters Love and Death have a bet... and Death plans to win.
Rating: 5 out of 5 (it was beautiful and wonderful and so fluffy and full of feels I loved it)

The Beast Within ~ Serena Valentino
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Overview: The Beast remembers his days as a selfish Prince, who thought he had the perfect life before he met Circe and her sisters.
Rating: 4 out of 5 (pretty good, not my favorite retelling, but I really loved the twists put on it)

The Reluctant Godfather ~ Allison Tebo
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Overview: Burndee is a grumpy fairy godfather who doesn't like humans at all.  But when one of his godchildren has a marriage ultimatum put down by his father, Burndee gets an idea.  Why not set his godchildren up with each other?
Rating: 5 out of 5 (highly recommended for fans of fairytale retellings, reluctant love, and cake)


What I Watched:

The Good Witch:

This show is so comforting.  It's got the cozy feel of Gilmore Girls, but being on Hallmark, it's clean and feel-good and my little shipper heart literally can't handle the cuteness. 

Once Upon a Time:


(this line just made me laugh really hard) THE MUSICAL EPISODE IS COMING AND I CANNOT WAIT like seriously musical episodes are my favorite everything I adore them.

Liv and Maddie:

So yes, the show stole my heart.  I'm not quite done with season 4 (which is officially the last season, which is sad), but I'm glad this show came into my life, even for a short while.


What I Listened To:


So I discovered some of my favorite artists new[ish] stuff, including the new Pentatonix album (which includes "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy", one of my inexplicable favorites, Jamie Grace's new single (which is indeed a very happy song), and the newest Casting Crowns album that I never actually listened to despite being excited about it for awhile now (it's great, btw).


What I Posted:
We're up one from last month with five whole posts this month.
We started with me finally deciding to tell you the truth of the matter.
Then I answered the questions of the Liebster Award 2.0.
I shared how my family is in a place of miracles.
IT WAS EASTER!
And finally, I laid out 11 sequels that I need to read.


What I Plan to Read:
Like last month, May is promising to be busy, what with several recitals, working at a friend's sister's wedding, and getting ready for the OYAN Summer Workshop in June (I'M SO EXCITED, YOU GUYS).  So I'm trying to keep my reading list short, but there are a few books I would like to finish this month.

A Time to Die ~ Nadine Brandes (I really want to finish this one and just for good measure I'm putting)

A Time to Speak ~ Nadine Brandes (on my list because I will probably pick this one up as soon as I finish the first one.)

The Icecutter's Daughter ~ Tracie Peterson (I just started this one and it feels like it will be a quick read)

Beauty Sleep ~ Cameron Dokey (I would love to grab another copy of this from the library and finish it because I really was enjoying it, I just ran out of time to finish it)


So there we go! The month of April comes to a close, and I welcome May with open arms and more than a bit of fear when I look at the family schedule in the kitchen.

What was your favorite thing you read/watched/listened to/did this month?  Let me know in the comments below!

~ Abby

Monday, April 24, 2017

11 Sequels I Need to Read

I have a bad habit.

I really need to break it.

I have a tendency to read AMAZING books that have sequels.

I love the books.

But do I read the sequels?


No, but I really need to.

And so today, we're going to take a look at 11 sequels that I really, really need to read.  And soon.

(and honestly, the saddest part is that I own 7 out of the 11.  So I really have no excuse.)

1. Disney at Dawn ~ Ridley Pearson
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Series: Kingdom Keepers
Reason I haven't read it yet: Distraction
Notes: I reread the first one specifically so that I could read this.  So why haven't I read it yet?  (I mean... I'm 82 pages in... but does that really count?) 

2. Lightning ~ Bonnie S. Calhoun
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Series: The Stone Braide Chronicles
Reason I haven't read it yet: Need to reread the first one / Haven't had time yet
Notes: The first book in this series was one of the first I read in 2016, and was one of my favorites last year.  I've had my eye on this one since then, and just recently, it and the third book, Storm, went on sale, and I snatched them both up.  I'm really excited to get back into this world and see what happens next.  (Also, that cover is so intriguing o.o)

3. Smek for President! ~ Adam Rex
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Series: Smek
Reason I haven't read it yet: I don't own it... yet
Notes: I absolutely adored the first book in this series, and I just haven't had the chance to order this one from the library yet and devour it because I'm sure I will love it because the reviews are great AHH I'M SO EXCITED.

4. Guardian ~ Heather Burch
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(I know... that cover... *winces* [although that jacket is fab I would totally wear that])
Series: Halflings
Reason I haven't read it yet: Need to reread the first one / E-book slump
Notes: I read the first one to this series almost two years ago, loved it, and bought the other two... but did I read them?  No, of course not.  Because right after I purchased them, I went into a major e-book slump.  It was like a reading slump, but strictly with e-books.  I just could not read an e-book.  I don't know why.  It was an issue.  I think I'm past it now, so I just need to reread the first one, and I'll be good to go.

5. Exile ~ Shannon Messenger
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Series: Keeper of the Lost Cities
Reason I haven't read it yet: I don't own it
Notes: I absolutely loved the first one in this series.  So much that I wrote a review here on this blog!  I need to just buckle down and order this from the library and read it and love it.  I need to.

6. The Calling ~ Rachelle Dekker
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Series: Seer
Reason I haven't read it yet: Need to reread the first one
Notes: I loved the first book.  I waited too long to pick up the second one.  I haven't had time to pick up the first one again yet.  Really excited for this one.  Simple as that.

7. More Than a Skeleton ~ Paul L. Maier
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Series: Jonathan Weber
Reason I haven't read it yet: I don't own it
Notes: I liked the first book, and this one sounds fascinating.  Our church library has it (which is where I got my hands on the first one), so I'm hopefully going to pick this up soon.

8: Cinderella's Shoes ~ Shonna Slayton
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Series: Cinderella's Dress
Reason I haven't read it yet: E-book slump
Notes: The first one was really fun, and I just need to buckle down and read this one because I'm sure I'll love it.

9. The Whisper ~ Emma Clayton
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Series: The Roar
Reason I haven't read it yet: I don't own it
Notes: I really enjoyed the first book, and I need to get to this one before I forget everything that happened, lol.

10. Scarlet ~ Marissa Meyer
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Series: The Lunar Chronicles
Reason I haven't read it yet: E-book slump
Notes: I absolutely loved Cinder, but the e-book slump hit right after I bought this and Cress.  But I fully intend to get back into this series and back with these characters very soon.

11. A Time to Speak ~ Nadine Brandes
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Series: Out of Time
Reason I haven't read it yet: Haven't technically finished the first book yet....
Notes: Okay, so I'm currently reading A Time to Die and I'm LOVING IT IT'S SO GOOD.  And as I already own this one (it's currently watching me from my bookshelf... don't worry, book, I'll be there soon), I'm sure I'll dive straight into this as soon as I surface from the last one.


So that's the list!

What are some sequels that you need to read?  Do you feel the same shame I do when you don't get to them as quickly as you might like?  Let me know in the comments below!

~ Abby

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Lead Me To The Cross

Lead me down a dusty road, seeing in the distance a city-covered hill.  Dirt crunches beneath the sandals of dozens of weary travelers, some on donkeys or carts, most on foot, each looking forward to the bed they hope to find. 

Lead me to enter that city, packed to the brim with Jews from all over the country, who are blissfully unaware that this is the Passover that will change mankind forever.

Lead me after two men on a mission, confused at their mission, but believing in their rabbi.  There is excitement and astonishment from the men when they realize that the rabbi's words were true, patting the coarse hair of the colt they sought.

Lead me to follow a processional that causes a louder response than anyone had expected.  "Hosanna to the Son of David!  Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!  Hosanna in the highest heaven!" Palm branches and discarded coats litter the streets as people scramble to make way for a carpenter on a donkey.

Lead me to a room, less than a week later, where twelve men sit around a table, each silently convicted when their teacher says quietly, "One of you will betray me."  Peter, once known as Simon, the unwitting, unofficial leader, lifts his voice with that trademark temper, "Oh, Lord, I would never betray you!"  There is gentle pain in the rabbi's eyes.

Lead me to a garden, in the hush of night, following four men, two of them with torches, three of them left behind.  The rabbi walks by himself for awhile, silent.  Soon, a sudden weight seems to push him to his knees.  Tears run down his worn face.  "Father," he cries, seeming to speak to empty air, "Take this cup from me.  I don't want this burden." He stops, leaning his forearms against a rock, his hands clenched together.  His brow is furrowed, sweat beading his leather-like skin, and his shoulders lift slightly.  "Not my will but yours be done."  His voice is so quiet it's almost a whisper.  That whisper echoes in the courts of the Most High; the angels looking crestfallen at the words.

Lead me to those he left behind, huddled together under a tree.  The torches have long since gone out, and Peter stretches and yawns.  "How long is this going to take?  I'm exhausted."  John laughs, rubbing his hands over his tired face.  "Nah. Remember when he spent more then a month in the desert?  When Jesus prays, Jesus prays."  They chuckle, but an uneasy feeling is still among them.  "Do you think he meant what he said at dinner?" James asks, "Surely one of us wouldn't betray him."

Lead me to a group of strangely silent men, with torches and swords.  All feel something pressing on their chest, knowing something in this is wrong.  Most ignore it, too caught up in their anger, or in following orders.  A few hesitate for just a moment, but give in to the pressure.  All see the three men under the tree, Peter's snores ringing through the trees.  All come upon the rabbi, and the rabbi keeps praying.  The angels watch from the Most High's hall, Michael preparing his warriors for a rescue mission should the distress call come.

Lead me to Judas Iscariot, who is listening to the voice in his ear which says "Betray him."  One kiss, and the courts of heaven go silent.  Peter roars in anguish and anger, launching himself at the man he considered a friend.  John stops him, though he must also stop himself from following suit.  The rabbi looks not mad, but heartbroken.  He puts up no fight when the soldiers take him, makes no move to stop the three who run. 

Lead me to the High Priest's courtyard, where Peter slowly enters, rubbing his hands together against the chill.  A servant girl tilts her head, squinting at him.  "You were with him."  It isn't a question.  Peter hesitates, crossing his arms.  "No.  You must be thinking of someone else."  Twice more, and his temper flares.  "I do not know the man!"  A rooster crows.  Peter's stomach drops.

Lead me to a Roman court, where the governor is nervous.  An innocent man may die today, and it will be his fault.  His wife has begged him to release the rabbi, but the religious leaders will not relent.  Then he sees the way out.  Ask the people.  Let it be on their consciences, not his. 

Lead me to another crowd, this one excited in a different way.  They get a choice.  "Release Barabbus!"  They cry, and though the governor is confused, he relents. 


"What shall we do with this one, whom you have called Messiah?" 

"Crucify him! Crucify him!"


Lead me down a road, stained with blood, where countless others had trudged to their death.  The rabbi is beaten, his skin striped with blood, his face dripping with sweat that stings the punctures on his forehead.  He stumbles, and the soldiers kick him until he steadies himself.  Most of the crowd jeers, here for entertainment, and getting their fill.  But some are here for him.  They have come to protest, to weep, to mourn.  

Lead me to a hill, called The Skull, where thousands of criminals have been put to death.  Where an innocent man will be punished for a far greater crime.  A soldier, war-hardened and under orders, shoves the rabbi against the cross, expecting, as before, for the man to struggle.  But the rabbi does not pull away.  He stretches out his own arm, watching as the spike is driven in, rending his flesh and causing more blood to flow.  The torture device is raised, and the sacrifice begins. 

Lead me to the heart of a thief, frustrated by another, who somehow has enough dignity in these last hours to mock the rabbi.  A rabbi who has done nothing wrong.  A rabbi whom he did not deserve even to die beside.  In a final, desperate, broken plea, he says, "Lord... Remember me when you come into your kingdom."  The rabbi smiles, though it hurts him to do so.  "My son," he says gently, and the thief knows, "You will be with me in paradise."

Lead me to the court of the Most High, where the true nature of the event is revealed.  Where the angels watch as every sin of every sinner from the time of Creation is placed on the rabbi, that the Most High might pour out His wrath on the only one who could ever withstand it.  Where after more pain than has ever been endured, an unprecedented event occurs.  The Father, no longer able to stand the sight of sin, turns His away from a man.  Angels gathered around are shocked, many still waiting for a nod, a word, even just a glance that says "Come".  But with a final breath and a whisper that turns into a scream as it ripped through the cosmos, the Son dies.  And the Enemy smiles. 

Lead me to the man who volunteers, who needs, to bury the body.  In a spotless tomb, the corpse is wrapped quickly, in anticipation of the coming Sabbath. Convinced that the rabbi's followers will try something to further his claims of Messiah, religious leaders seal the tomb, soldiers posted on either side of the door. 

Lead me to the heart of a woman who feels as though she has nothing left to live for.  The rabbi gave her life.  And now that life has gone.  When the Sabbath is over, she gathers spices to properly prepare the body.  Her Lord will not remain in this state, she is determined.  But something is wrong when she arrives.  The massive, impossibly heavy stone is already moved.  With a horrified cry, she rushes inside, the other women she has brought with her trailing behind.  The body is gone.  She falls to the ground, clutching empty wrappings and feeling as if another piece of her heart has shattered.  He is gone... again.  But with a flash, to men stand before them, in gleaming white robes that are so bright it hurts to look.  "We know you seek Jesus of Nazareth," they say, "but the living cannot be among the dead."  Someone stands behind her, and she turns to clutch his robe.  "Please, sir.  Do you know where they've taken him?" 

"Mary."

And she weeps, for this is him.  Him.  The One who mended every broken shard of her heart, the One who called her out of such darkness that she would have drowned.  The One she calls "Rabbi". 

Lead me to a room, the same as before, where ten men are scared beyond reason.  Surely they will be next.  They didn't even stay to see the body moved... they couldn't.  They couldn't stand the thought that he really was dead.  But Mary knows where they are, and she has news that they don't believe.  "He's alive!  Peter, he's alive!"  Peter's mind says "it cannot be", but his heart cries "please".  Please let it be true.  With John on his heels, he tears through the streets, knowing where the tomb is, though he isn't sure how.  He sees the cloths and he knows.  He knows, somewhere deep within that it is true.  

Jesus is alive.
 
 
Lead me to a bedroom, two thousand years later, where an eight-year-old girl is sitting on her bed, a thoughtful expression on her face.  Her daddy sits beside her, trying to keep from grinning, because although he is excited, he knows that she is completely serious.  The girl's mother stands in the doorway, wanting to hear the conversation, but also wrangling two younger siblings.  "Daddy?" The girl gives him a little smile. "What do I pray to ask Jesus in my heart?" Now the man can't contain his smile.  

The miracle is still alive.  The tomb is still empty.  The courts of the Most High still ring out with praise.  That little girl's life was changed by the first Easter morning.  She's still not perfect, but she knows the rabbi.  And she loves him so much.  And he loves her even more.



Happy Easter, y'all!  He is risen indeed!




When was your miracle? What was your first encounter with the rabbi?  Let me know in the comments below!

~ Abby

Saturday, April 8, 2017

In a Place of Miracles

If you don't know (and you probably don't), my life is currently in a constant state of turmoil. 

Ever since November 18th of 2015, things have been different from anything I've experienced before.

On November 18th, my uncle was found dead in his apartment.

When I First Met My Uncle
(a terrible-quality pic of him holding me on the day I was born)

He was my mother's only sibling, and while he hadn't been in the best of health, his death came as a shock.  It was the week before Thanksgiving, when he was supposed to join us.  The funeral was the first where my siblings and I had been in the front row, as we normally helped in the sound booth with audio-visual things.  It was one of the hardest things I've had to go through.

The following January, we headed to Tennessee, partially for vacation, partially to scatter my uncle's ashes, and partially to visit Mom's step-mother.  Grandma Brittie had gotten the diagnoses of terminal cancer a few weeks before my uncle passed away.  We really got to know her heart in those few days, and she was one of the most beautiful souls I have ever known. 

Our uncle was placed along a memorial wall, overlooking a breathtaking mountain view, on the campus of the college where he devoted most of his life.  A small inscription was on the wall:
As a wizard with a wand, he lit up even the beyond.
Never needing use his guile, he did it simply with a smile.
(although it was written about a woman on the original)

In February, we heard the news that Grandma Brittie had lost the fight.

That funeral, we were unable to attend.  But our hearts were there, with her friends.  We were her only family.

The next few months passed quietly, but with coming anticipation.  We were scheduled to take a vacation in April to visit Colonial Williamsburg and then go on to Washington D.C.  Dad had wanted to take us to D.C. for as long as I could remember, and Williamsburg was to be an early birthday present for me, as it was one of my favorite places. 

On the 5th of April, we set out.  On the 7th, we went to Busch Gardens.  On the 8th, my life changed forever.

On the 8th, my daddy went to be with Jesus.

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We were headed down to the historic district when he collapsed in front of my brother from a severe heart attack, was taken to multiple hospitals, and after several hours he went to be with his Savior. 

Was it the worst day of my life?  Yes.  It absolutely was.

Was his funeral the second worst day of my life?  Of course.

But here's the thing: my faith has become stronger than ever. 


Daddy was the associate pastor at our church; had been for almost 20 years.  He'd been attending since he was a teenager, gone to seminary, and found that God had called him back to the church he'd left.  Turned out that he would play a very important role when the church went through a split a few years later, and he really held everything together.  We came to jokingly refer to him as the "minister of everything else", as his responsibilities eventually included everything from drama/media (his initial calling) to senior adults to education to music leader when our music minister passed away in 2014. 

And Daddy was worried.

The church, he felt, was growing stagnant.  Not much growth was going on, and everyone seemed to be going through the motions.  Little things were driving wedges between people, and the church was divided about the hunt for a new music minister.  Daddy told me a few times that he thought he might be the problem.  Mom told me later that they had been praying, "Lord, if we're supposed to go, just tell us."  She also said, "We didn't think that this was what He had in mind."

I personally, and we as a family, know without a doubt that Daddy's death was in God's plan, because if it did anything, it united the church to common goals.  Helping us.  Finding a music minister.  Pulling off VBS.  Making sure we could function.

Yes, there's a gaping hole.  One that probably will never go away.  Yes, Social Security is a beast that I don't recommend ever having to deal with if you can help it.  But the miracles we've seen and experienced let me know God's still in this.  His power is stronger than ever.

On the other side, I can look back and see the way He was laying the groundwork to keep us afloat.  My uncle's passing got us financially stable.  We're out of debt, and some money has been put aside for college (which is quickly approaching... but that's another post).  Grandma Brittie's passing made me look deeper into my faith, hoping for the flame I saw in her.  It got me closer to Him before we ever left for Virginia, which made it easier to fall into His arms.  Both of those events brought our family together, and inspired us to spend every second we could as a unit, seconds we now cherish. 

It's been a year.  The world spins on.  Sometimes I wish it would slow down, but it doesn't.  I still have high school to deal with.  I've stepped into the praise team, trying to fill the gap Daddy left behind, and our new music minister has us running full steam ahead.  Every day I get one day closer to seeing my uncle and Grandma Brittie and Daddy again.  Only God knows when that will be, but I'm ready.

As Jennifer Donnelly so beautifully put it in Lost in a Book, "Life ends.  But love?  Love lives forever."

I leave you with one of Daddy's favorite songs, from the movie Joseph: King of Dreams.  It's helped me get through these past few months.


I pray you meditate on the words, and that they come to mean as much to you as they do to me. 

God's still in this, y'all.  Never doubt that.

~ Abby

Friday, April 7, 2017

The Liebster Award 2.0

((Abby's posting two days in a row, whaaaat???))

Okay, so yes, I've already done this tag.

But the lovely Faith tagged me, and I had to do it.  Tags are my weakness, what can I say?



1) What made you want to start a blog?  Not going to lie, it was this post of Jonathan's.  Good job, Jonny.

2) What does your first name mean?  I love this question because I love the answer.  Abigail is a Hebrew name that means "My father's joy".  And with my middle name, Ruth, which means "friend", I've always thought that my name meant "My father's joy and friend", and I adore that.

3) Did you know when you were younger what you wanted to be/do when you grew up? Do you know or have any idea what you want to do now?  When I was younger, I wanted desperately to be an author.  I still write, and I still love it, but I think my true passion lies with stories in general, and I'm thinking about pursuing a career as a librarian... or as a genealogist... because I also love history... and again, that has to do with stories.

4) If you could see yourself from another person's perspective, whose perspective would you choose and why?  Ooh... good question.  I'm not sure.  Maybe my friends? 

5) What was the last book you read?  What was your opinion of it?  Did you like it, or not so much?  The last book I read was "Ring of Fire" by P.D. Baccalario, and I thought it was okay.  It definitely got better as it went along, and I'm intrigued enough to possibly pick up the sequel, so there's that.

6) What was the last movie you watched? What was your opinion of it?  I honestly don't remember.  I feel like it might have been "Beauty and the Beast"... I mean, I watched like twenty minutes of "The Princess Bride" yesterday... and I loved/love both of them.

7) What is your favorite movie adaptation of a book? I have so many.  "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" and "The Giver" are favorites.

8) What quote do you find yourself saying often?  "I believe in Christ as I believe the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because I see everything by it." ~ C.S. Lewis  And I also love "There are no coincidences.  Just miracles by the boatload." ~ from "Navigating Early" by Clare Vanderpool [but every quote from this book is beautiful].  (although, in an ironic, funny way, my family and I will say "c'mon, son" [from Psych] to each other a lot... and my brother and I quote Phineas and Ferb a lot... so...)

9) If you could live in one other time period, what would it be?  I honestly don't think I would go all that far back.  I love air conditioning and indoor plumbing too much.

10) What would you consider to be your favorite thing to do in your free time?  What do you ACTUALLY end up doing in your free time?  I consider reading to be my favorite thing... but I usually just end up watching YouTube or Netflix.

11) What is the one thing that you want people to remember about you when you're gone?  How much I loved Jesus.  How much I loved people.  How much I loved myself.


So yeah, that's the Liebster award!  Again!

(thanks Riley)

So if you want to answer these questions, feel free!

Officially, I'm tagging Allison Tebo (and Ali, if you want to do the questions I wrote the first time I did this tag, go ahead! My brain isn't working well enough to write new ones, pfft.)

That's all for now folks!

Love God, love others, love yourself. <3

~ Abby